Here I Am - and I Have No Idea What I'm Doing

Join me while I fumble and struggle creating my very first blog post. Please be nice.

“My first blog…forgive me future blogger for all of the mistakes I am about to make…"

What does a woman do when her kids no longer need her? Does she go through the typical existential crisis? The “who am I now” phase? You bet your ass she does. And it. Is. Brutal. So, in perfect 21st Century style, I invite you all to join me as I traverse the unfamiliar mountains of life as a mother when you are no longer needed.

Am I being dramatic? Yes. Am I being sarcastic? Yes. Full disclosure…my boys are eighteen and sixteen. They technically do still need me, just not as much as I’ve been used to for their whole lives. It’s quite a shock to the system and I have decided to use my newly acquired free time to figure out via this blog what in the world to do, and I would love it if you all joined me in my journey. But only if you want to. I can’t promise it will always be exciting, I can’t promise I won’t somedays be all over the place, but I can promise that I’ll be real, I’ll be honest and I will definitely be a tiny bit interesting (I think).

My name is Cassie. I am a 45-year-old divorced mother of 2 teenage boys working full time to…to…(you know what? I have no idea. I guess that’ll be one of the many things I will try to figure out here). I am a girlfriend. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend. What I am trying to say is, we wear many hats during our lifetimes, and we get used to those hats. So much so, that sometimes we forget that we can add a hat, or remove a hat. But we also forget that we are not our hats. We are ourselves, and we lose ourselves underneath those hats. It takes discipline and not a little time to dig a bit to figure out who we are without those hats.

I know who I'm not. I’m not a writer. I’m not a story teller, but I love writing. I love the idea of being able to write, and I think I am good at it. I just cannot for the life of me decide what to write about. So, I started a blog…

I'm going to write about a little of everything here. My life lessons, my interests and hobbies, my family. It's not a "we'll see what sticks" situation as much as it is a "I have no idea what my niche is" situation. I guess I'll figure that out here too. Maybe I'll start an advice column...what do you guys think? Ask Cassie? Connect with Cassie? We'll work on names later, but I'm a sucker for alliteration.

So that's it. Like a said, I never promised excitement. Just honesty. Maybe some humor. We'll figure that out here too, I guess.